look into myself, and find somebody else, nope, not somebodyelse, just another side of me. and you know what? i think i really lost who i am before this. do not tell me about it anymore, don't know why, it makes my heart hurts.
am i wanna myself back? sometimes i think so, but that's not easy for me at all. i tried, i am trying, and i will keep trying, but,, it just... so hard. hard without anyone i can talk to about this. hard with things that gone just fine, even seems getting better without me.. and nobody really want me to back, really be by my side, to guide me through the way i have losted. well weird, in the other words maybe i am not trully wants myself back, becauce i am just waiting somebody to come, and never try to catch it by myself. yeah, i know. give up already, to back lonely.
the things left behind, just so great to overcome. still save a hurt heart maybe, with no idea about things can repair it.
i know it is not good at all. not good for whoever look at me on that way, the way they (and me maybe) think i should be: someone i had left.
sometimes i think, better to just let the life flow, without any effort to go back, and just pretend nothing happen, be happy with my life now, whatever they say. but then...
... why keep asking za?
hff..
somebody,
help me please.
the Corrs
If life is a river and your heart is a boat
And just like a water baby baby born to float
And if life is a wild wind that blows way on high
And your heart is Amelia dying to fly
Heaven knows no frontiers
And I've seen heaven in your eyes
And if life is a bar room in which we must wait
'Round the man with his fingers on the ivory gates
Where we sing until dawn of our fears and our fates
And we stack all the dead men in self addressed crates
In your eyes faint as the singing of a lark
That somehow this black night
Feels warmer for the spark
Warmer for the spark
To hold us 'til the day
When fear will lose it's grip
And heaven has its way
Heaven knows no frontiers
And I've seen heaven in your eyes
If your life is a rough bed of brambles and nails
And your spirit's a slave to man's whips and man's jails
Where you thirst and you hunger for justice and right
And your heart is the pure flame of man's constant night
In your eyes faint as the singing of a lark
That somehow this black night
Feels warmer for the spark
Warmer for the spark
To hold us 'til the day
When fear will lose it's grip
And heaven has its way
And heaven has its way
When all will harmonise
And know what's in our hearts
The dream will realise
Heaven knows no frontiers
And I've seen heaven in your eyes
Heaven knows no frontiers
And I've seen heaven in your eyes
Well, such a great semester for me. With some great stories as well. And these all will end, a week forward, with still 3 great tasks smiling, and 4 exam waiting. hm, hope everything will be just fine.
one thing, i have to be more patient, when facing something that isn't in a way with what i want it to be. and it gonna be a great challanges for me, after what i've done with the last cases.
hm, happy life!
(in Indonesian: selamat hidup!!) hehe..